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This is my usual daily make-up routine when I wear make-up. Lucky you. You get to watch the fat lady put on make-up. What you see is almost 9 minutes of video. I had to speed it up by 5x. I used to be able to do everything you see here in under 20 minutes. I shake too much to be able to do that now. I takes about 45 minutes now. So this is my “everyday” make-up look.

A few pictures so you can see the eye make-up up close with and without glasses so you can see what I described in my previous post about glasses frames changing the way your eye make-up looks.

My Vanity Make-up without glasses Make-up with Glasses Eye close-up w/glasses

So there you have it. I’ve gone completely out of my comfort zone & shown the world my flabby arms & double chin. No one, except someone else with severe degenertive disc disease & FMS & Osteoarthritis & and an aneurysm in their heart will understand the concept that dieting at a mear 1100 calories a day does not result in wieght loss. & for those of you who thing Obama Care is going to be fantastic. I laugh in your face.

I am completely 100% physically disabled according the SSA. Part of that means that I receive Medicaid as my health care benefit as no one else will insure me. A couple of decades ago the Feds @ SSA gave the management of who gets approved & how services are provided up to the states to manage. Here in GA, almost 3 years ago, they turned the management of Medicaid over to HMOs, thinking it would save them money. Our governor was so proud when he told us it would save our state over $5 billion per year. In the first year alone it ended up costing the state over $8 billion. The very sad part of this is that those HMO’s started denying providership to over 70% of the then current providers in the state, over 90% of the mental health care providers. State ran mental health care facilities were forced to close. Suicide rates exponentially rose.

Most days I cannot walk w/out a walker. Some days the pain is so intense I cannot even walk at all. One would think the obvious answer would be, physical therapy, right? Wrong. The only way I’m getting physical therapy is if I’ve been hospitalized for something orthopedic and it is written as part of discharge orders. Well, seeing as my degenerative disc disease is so bad in one spot that no one will operate as the chances of my ending up paralyzed & in a wheelchair are far too great, I won’t be getting physical therapy anytime soon. Kind of like, when I had the stroke, I did what the HMO wants me to do and called my nurse case manager first, she said, “Yes sure does sound like you have had a stroke but at this point it is over and there is no point in going to the ER as they will want to do a brain MRI and you have already had one this year so we aren’t going to cover another one. I see here that you have an appointment with your neurologist on Monday (this was a Wednesday). He can do an in office physical exam to confirm the stroke.” Which is what we did.

Any way. I digress. I have gone far off topic. Don’t bother telling me how fat I am. I already know it. Yes I plan on doing something surgical about it, as soon as I can find a gastric surgeon who believes my cardio-thoracic doctor that I can undergo said procedure as long as certain precautions are made. I have the self discipline to be able to do a lap-band and make it work and that procedure can be done laproscopically. How am I so sure of myself & why do I know I can make it work? Because I have watched my mother fail at 3 weight loss surgeries, last one nearly cost her her life because she wasn’t mentally prepared to give up food & the hospital’s dietary staff was not educated in the care & feeding of a patient who had just had a Reux-en-Y type gastric bypass.

Any who. Have fun laughing at my fat face. Ciao for now~


Make-up and Me 

When I was a teenager I used to wear make-up frequently. Unless I was depressed or overslept, I was not going out the door w/out make-up on my face. I take that back, I used to have to leave for school early to be able to put my make-up on in the gym locker-room because my father believed only whores wore make-up at the age of 16.

Then as I got older and motherly duties came first, I neglected my skin & make-up became something that was saved for special occasions. Now that I have spent over 18 years living with only Y-chromosome people, you might call it my mid-life crisis, but I am re-discovering my joy of make-up.

Yes, I watch the tutorial videos of the likes of Lauren Luke , Michelle Phan and Kandee Johnson. While most of the looks they do in their videos are nothing I would never do myself, a lot of them are looks have known how to do for years. They have inspired me to be proud to be female and revel in all things girlish again.

I still don’t wear make-up every day. The only reason I don’t is because most days I can barely walk let alone hold a make-up brush steadily. The art of proper make-up application is exactly that, it is an ART. Not everyone can put on make up and have it enhance their features w/out looking like a clown. And not everyone cares about it at all, and that is fine but I refuse to hide in the closet or feel put down because I find joy in something so intrinsically feminine.

My husband & my sons treat me differently when I have make-up on. When I have make-up on in public, I am treated differently and with more respect. Strange? Yes. Does this mean society is still highly misogynistic? Probably. Do I care as I am staring 38 in the face? Not one damn bit.

If you’ve made it this far and haven’t gotten sick of the make-up shtick yet, you might be wondering what some of my favorite make-up lines are. The things I personally use.

  • For a foundation base I simply stick to my acne treatment’s moisturizer. For a foundation, I use whatever loose mineral foundation is on sale at Walgreen’s or Wal-Mart because it is so healthy for every skin type and with a light coverage, evens out your skin tone & hides blemishes w/out being toxic to your pours; it lets your skin breath.
  • For an eyeshadow primer & eyelash primer I use Claudia Stevens brand which can be easily found at Sally Beauty and are incredibly affordable.
  • For eye colors, cheek colors, & lip stains I have 4 of Lauren Luke’s pallets which you can find at her official online website or at any Sephora counter, store (store front or online). I am also very enamored by Urban Decay. It can also be found at Sephora but I highly recommend going to their online website & signing up for their mailing list. Their stuff is very expensive and I only have one very small pallet of their’s and w/out the email with the coupon code I would have never have been able to afford it. Don’t quote me on this, I can only guess by working with the make-up that their stuff, at least the eye shadows are pressed minerals. The blush in the pallet also “behaves” as if it is also. I would have to search further into it.

My final tip is this: if you wear nerdy girl eye glasses like do (bold black frames) and wear them all day long, don’t be afraid to go a little bolder with your eye make-up than you think you should because the black frame draws attention away from your eyes and all of the work you put into your look will have been for nothing when you put on your glasses & look in the mirror & see that it looks like you don’t have any make-up on at all.


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